Lost some sleep...

Waiting is a thing I don't do very well...Any kind of waiting...waiting on a ride from someone..waiting in line at the grocery store...waiting for answers is very high on the list of things I do not do well....The Oncologist office called today, and we have an appointment to hear what the results of the CT scans were and what the technicians findings were...and what the game plan will be on WEDNESDAY MORNING!!!!!  So more waiting.... 

4 comments:

Merry ME said...

I through a fit yesterday because the cable company can't send a technician out before Thursday. I was going to call the President of the company and give him a sob story about my dying father along with a piece of my mind. Sweetie solved the problem by unplugging the box. Why didn't I think of that?

I find waiting for me isn't hard to do. Waiting for someone else is painful.

Hope you'll find some serenity in the coming days.
Thinking of you and sending sunny smiles.

Pat Dalke said...

Turn waiting upside down...I use the time as a gift that was not expected. It's this space where nothing else was planned but the thing that was planned and it hasn't arrivied, so I've got this time. I can read another chapter in the book I'm reading, I can think about another page in my journal or day dream. I see it as "guilt free" time, nothing else that I am SUPPOSED to be doing.

Pattie, please I am not trivializing waiting for the results of tests, I guess I came to realize that nothing changed, the results are the same no matter what day we hear them. Meanwhile, maybe, just maybe, I saw the sunset turn the tiny living room at the cottage to gold, astonishing. At that moment I got up and looked out to where Dan was sitting in the Pond Prowler fishing, and he had turned golden too. Would I have experienced this if I had been waiting?

Love,
Pat

Pat Dalke said...

What I meant to say is: would I have experienced this if I had not been waiting???

Merry ME said...

I tap my feet. Shake my leg. Rattle my keys. Check my list(s). Fume quietly. Fuss out loud. Take a nap.

If I'm in line at the grocery store and there's a baby near me, I forget about waiting and make smiley and goo goo faces.

Pat's advice sounds much more productive!