Yesterday we celebrated my Mother's 85th birthday....We had a small gathering of select friends and all most all the family (my brother and family live in Florida and could not make it here)...Anyhow, Michael was feeling well enough to go to the brunch (he usually does better in the morning) We put a game plan in place just encase he had to bow out early....We got dressed and drove with my son to the restaurant....
REALITY HIT....and HIT HARD....
I am so accustomed to being with Michael 24/7 either here at home or at the Doctor's office (among other people who are living in various stages of cancer) that my vision is blinded....and it really wasn't until we were sitting in the restaurant among "healthy" people that I realized how sick he looks now....how thin and fragile he is...how his face appears sunken more now than before...how he walks very slowly and not very steady...and shakes more than I remember....
Maybe this reality hit me because I see him every day....that I look to see if he is sleeping to much or running a fever...or other side effects that I must take notice of...over looking everything else....Maybe it is because I am so close to the situation that I do not want to see what is taking place right before me...Maybe it is because there are not others around for me to compare the difference in him...
Maybe it is because his spirit is still the same...Maybe it is because he laughs a lot...Maybe it is because he continues to make me believe that everything is going to be alright...Maybe it is because he has maintained his sense of humor...
I think more likely it is because LOVE surrounds us....
BE WELL....
2 comments:
Beautiful picture!
I believe love does surround you.
So glad you got out.
Hope it was a splediferous day.
Hugs & prayers.
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