Blood work Monday...

We waited for the results of the blood work..and although the levels were a little off as usual because of the chemo and just the fact that he is anemic....they sent us home after the 1st in the series of booster shots to bring his white blood count up....No matter what happens from here the white count has to improve in order to fight off any kind of infection...I realize that they are doing this in hopes of getting him strong enough to undergo the transplant if he is a candidate...but right now he is tired...and is not sure if he wants to undergo that process...I am trying to remain calm...cool and collective...as I collect my questions for the Doctor...and in order to not put any undo pressure on him at this point....All of these procedures have taken a lot out of him...And I think just knowing that it did not work has deflated him....his "fight" seems to be pretty weak right now...So we will lay low...take it as it comes for the next 3 weeks....Do the booster shots and anything else they might recommend at the clinic...and then I have to once again don my SUPER WIFE cape and give him ALL the reasons that he needs to at least go and talk to the transplant team and hear what it is that they have to say....I am tired today...it was a long weekend ...some silence...some reflection....some laughter...getting together with family...and some fear for the future...

2 comments:

Charlie said...

Hello my dear friend.I hope you know my thoughts and prayers are always with you and your sweetheart. Hang in there and continue on with your questions and more questions. Stay strong and may God Bless.
xoxox
C.

Laura Hegfield said...

Hang in there Patti, you are such a kind and devoted wife. I send blessings of healing light to Michael and to you too...for your heart is broken in many pieces and is in need of deep healing. And it will heal...hearts break and heal many times in our lives...hearts are like ripe fruit with seeds of possibility inside. Our lives break, they change...and then transform into something blessed that we could not have imagined before.

gentle steps,
Laura