Last day of Chemo...

Today, was the last day of the rounds of chemo....we had a partial sit down with the Doctor...the game plan is going to be that he will get a series of booster shots next week every day to build his white count up.....He will continue to come in for blood work on Monday's and they will treat him according to what is needed (blood washings...transfusions...) we will be going to see a specialist in stem cell replacement...to see if he is a candidate for that procedure (which I understand is a difficult and painful one) in hopes that it will cause the cancer to go into remission for a while...perhaps a year...although I am not sure of the quality of living one has after this procedure and I am going to be doing research on it....I have so many questions that I am NOW (after leaving the office of course) beginning to wrap myself around...and have decided that next week I will make an appointment to see the Dr. myself and sit down and get as many of them answered as possible...I need to be informed...Michael would just do at this point ANYTHING they told him to do ...but I need to know more...I want more answers...I have to be educated as to what they think the outcome might be...and what quality of life we can expect...and how much it will effect HIM...ME...US....These past 6 months have been difficult...So much has been put on hold...So much has not even been able to be done...waiting...watching....Life is for living....EVEN when dying....and I believe that if there is a choice to be made in how we die than we have a right to make that choice....If you were given a time span and they said....6 months....you could travel...you could enjoy....or 12 months...you could under go treatments ...be in hospitals...go to Doctors every day....Which one would you choose? I know which one I would choose for myself...and we each have to make that decision if presented to us...and we each have to stand by that decision made by someone else....but if you do not ask the questions....than you cannot make an educated...personal decision....I think that is fair.....Don't you?

2 comments:

Robin O'Neal said...

Yes, Pattie, I think it is fair and wise and very well stated here. I'm glad you are willing to ask hard questions and seek personal answers...

My personal feeling (and I've not been anywhere near the reality you're facing)is that, ultimately, it's between each of us and God. And, in my experience, not a whole lot of the medical profession is touting this philosophy on a regular basis.

Blessings~

Barb said...

Pattie, you are very wise indeed to ask the questions and seek the answers at this difficult time. Your and Michael's courage is amazing. I don't know what I would do in a situation like you are facing and I hope I never find out. But if I do, I would hope to carry on with even half the courage and grace you do. I do know that I would be researching like crazy, as you do. When all is said and done, you won't be looking back and asking, "What more could we have done?"

I will continue to hold you in my thoughts and prayers.

Hugs xoxo