Things can be going along at a fairly normal pace and then it smacks you upside the head...The WOULDA...COULDA...SHOULDA...MONSTER! He approaches out of nowhere to nip at your ankles...punch you in the stomach and slap you in the head...If I knew what I know now I "would" of been a better companion...If I "could" just have another day to say all the things that went unsaid...I "should" of been a little more attentive in the years before he got sick...I push and shove this monster away because I know I did the best that I could on most days...but there were those other days...those days when I did not do my best...I can't go backwards...I can't change them...I can only believe that he forgave me and knows that I forgave him for any of the woulda...coulda...shoulda's! How is it that when we are feeling most vulnerable we just seem to love to throw that WCS Monster into the mix also??? What makes me do that? I am trying very hard today to dive into my work to makes sure this monster stays at bay...I am pushing him toward the window to fall 2 stories...Maybe that will put an end to him today!
BE WELL
rambles from the shadow side of life...About living...about living with dying....This is where my heart will pour forth...this is where my shadow will be exposed...this is where I will cry...where I will laugh...where I will become one with that shadow of life...
3 comments:
the love and grace you showed thru out this whole journey was stunning. perhaps i wasn't there to see you not do your best. i only witnessed thru your blog.
but from that witnessing, i can tell you that you ARE love and grace. and that you gave what you could. and it mattered and was known and was appreciated. and maybe your job now is to hold that. sending you love...
I totally agree with terri.....you were an angel and continue to be to those around you. I hope by now the WCS or is it WSC are over the ledge and gone by now. Hugs.
Patti, Terri said it so well that I cannot improve on her truth. I can send you strong thoughts and heart hugs to help vanquish the monsters—and I AM doing that!
Did I read correctly that you have a book contract? I KNEW it would happen!
And are you in for the next Soul Restoration II? I am; hope to "see" you there too!
One last thought: Is this your year for Taos and Jennifer? Seems a natural choice . . .
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