Feeling lonely...

I was sitting on the sofa, working on a Christmas project when I was overcome with emotions...
Michael was sleeping in this overstuffed chair...Where he is most of the time...and today he had been asleep for most of the day and all of the evening...This feeling that overcame me was powerful enough to make me start to cry...I concentrated on what I was doing...and it washed over me again...Finally as I sat there I realized what it was...I was lonely...I like to be alone...I like the quiet and the solitude of my studio...I like the quiet of the night when I can type and paint alone without the noise that goes on with TV's or radios or cars and trucks going up and down the street...but this feeling was lonely...I have tried tonight to go deep within and find a place to put that feeling...and then I got an E mail...and that loneliness went away....I know I am not alone...I know that I am surrounded by love...well wishes...concern....caring...all wonderful emotions that I have to make sure that I keep close...keep treasured...focused on...So tonight I tuck that loneliness away...tonight I focus on the happiness that others bring to me...how they make me smile...how they lighten my load...and how much I am loved.

4 comments:

Luna said...

I wish I was geographically closer to come sit with you and Michael.
I admire the way you are being so present to your feelings and present in the moment.
Thinking of you and holding you in my heart.....with much love...

xoxo

Brenda said...

You are sooooooo loved!!!!!!! And if you ever want to chat--pick up the phone--I am but a couple of rings away!
Love you Girl!
bb

Charlie said...

I'm sending you warm thoughts and wishes. May your Christmas be merry and bright. If I could I would wash away all the lonely thoughts and throw them out the window for you.

yertle said...

What a powerful post. May love surround you.